Last week: ended a relationship, dealt with a bunch of family drama, hurt myself, and got in my first tumblr fight
This week: got in a fight with my best friend, didn’t do as well as I wanted to on a midterm, answered a bunch of questions wrong in class, didn’t work out as much as I wanted to, waited around on a Friday night for a friend to text me plans to go out and then 2 hours later found out she bailed out.
I’m feeling pretty down and lousy. Like I’ve lost my mojo, like I’m just under the weather. I’m trying to look for a silver lining but it’s just difficult. I’m not particularly interested in any of the courses I am taking this semester, I feel like when I discuss things in class I sound like an idiot, I feel like I have to deal with a bunch of family shifts and it is just difficult. I’m not sure about my employment for the summer. I guess it is true what they say about uncontrollable or ambiguous stress; it stresses you out more.
After a shitty week, I just needed a good night and feel let down. Oh well, it’s just one of those times in life. Next time I’m on cloud 9 I’ll remember what it feels like to be here and just be that more appreciative.
Just Another Lover